Some Days

When people ask me where I work and I tell them the NICU I always get this response, "Oh that must be so difficult and sad." My response is ALWAYS, "Somedays, but most days there is so much happiness that it overrides any sadness that could compare." Today was a someday. Today was one of those days that made me question whether I was good enough, strong enough and spiritual enough to do the work that I do.

I came home tonight and saw my baby laughing and smiling. While smiling back at him I tried my best not to cry. Sometimes life is seems so unfair. I have to hold onto my belief that each thing that happens in life, happens for a reason. After a day like today, I hold my baby a little tighter, a little longer and though I thought impossible, with more love.

I pray each day that I am allowed to watch my baby grow up and that he endures the least amount of pain and suffering in his life as possible. I hope that God continues to allow me to witness the miracles that he performs on a day to day basis at my place of work and that my strength will be renewed and I will be ever ready to handle what comes next.

Please help us get closer to the day that every baby is born healthy. I am walking on the Olivia and Logan team again this year for the March of Dimes, March for Babies. If you choose to sponsor me by clicking on the icon on my side bar, you will be helping us take another step toward this goal. I truly hope that someday every baby WILL be born healthy and that I will be out of a job! In the meantime...there will be days...